Nightmares of You

I keep having these nightmares of you
I see you staring at me and the only thing I notice are your eyes
Your blue eyes that turn darkish gray
Your eyes that are full of evil
You're sitting there and you want me to be yours
Yours to keep, to love and to hold, to touch and to feel
But I don't want to be yours like that
Why would I?
It's wrong you're my dad you're not supposed to want to love me like that
All I want is for you to act like a father
I try to get away but you grab me
You hold me down and say, "It's all your fault. You lead me on and you brought this upon yourself."
I try to scream
I try to kick
But I can't
I just lay there helpless
Finally you are done
You're tired of me fighting so you leave
But not without saying, "I'm sorry sweetie. You know I love you and won't let anything happen to you, right?"
There are a million things I would like to say to that
If you are sorry why did you do it?
If you loved me you would stop, no mark that out, if you loved me you wouldn't of done this in the first place! Why?!
You say you won't let anything happen to me, but you are!
You want to know who's hurting me?
Well, look in the mirror and you'll see just who it is.
But instead I just say, "Yes daddy, I know. I love you too."
Then you leave.
Now I'm alone.
Laying there on the cold floor
With no one in sight.
Helpless and all alone...