I'll Never Be Okay

im fighting back the tears
as all the pain from these past few years
slides its way down my arms
I feel it now
the blood rushes out
My breathing ceases
I die without a sound
Just leave me here
To drown in fear
As you walk away
I beg you to stay
I can't deny
All that you've tried to hide
I forced myself to stay by your side
What did it get me?
NOTHING
It broke my heart
I sold my soul
These cuts won't close
It's time for somerthing to be exposed
THE TRUTH that's what I need
But all you give me is a seed
It's just guilt builing up inside me
I slice the anger out of me
This time it doesn't help
Now I feel nothing
You shake your head in distaste
Let's see how you like waking up
In your own grave
Struggling with my mind to say
I'll never be okay.