the Wrong decision?

I had told her the truth
what she had done to me
I had shown her my scares
and I told her I would not
bleed again

Now I wonder
if I should have stayed
and listened
to what she never
wanted to say

If I should have
swallowed my tears
and try to learn
to love her again

But my heart
tells me no
when it had told me
once
that she was
my saving grace

Who shall I trust
What should I do

In the midst
of my tears
I wonder
did I make the wrong decision?

*bffs for 4 yrs and I had to end the relationship because of how she was treating me*