How do I?

Didn't think I'd feel this way.
Thought we would break up and I'd be over you in a day.
I was wrong and now my heart just sinks.
This isn't something I wanted to believe.
Woke up and my thoughts went straight to you.
I'm not to sure what I should do.
How do i, make sure that I don't want you back.
Now my heart has turned black.
How do I, tell myself to forget.
My stomach feels like I have been hit.
How do I, ask if you want me again.
I know i screwed up and I don't know where to begin.
How do I, tell you that I am starting to regret?
I seem to be in a movie but on a different set.
All i seem to do is think of you.
Been hit and now i just turn blue.
How do I, face you know?
I'm not sure I know how.
Will I stumble, will I fall.
Didn't think I'd go through this at all.
I didn't wanna let you go.
Now i feel stupid and slow.
Would you ever take me back?
I feel red, like my face was slapped.
You told me to chase after you if you left.
I said it was a promise kept.
I wanted so bad for you to do the same.
Now I feel stupid and lame.
I didn't wanna do this to you.
Just know, it's killing me to.
I wish i knew what to say.
I don't get why I woke up today.
Didn't sleep but two hours.
Fell asleep in the shower.
Wish I didn't do this.
Now i know i'll miss your kiss.
Feel so alone, since i said goodbye.
seems like forever and all i do is sigh.
I don't know what this poem will do.
I want you to know i wrote it just for you.
I regret everything I've done in the last three days.
I wish i had something to say.
Can I try and make it all better?
Or is it really over, and im just being clever?
Yes, I know im asking for another chance.
If you say no, ill understand.
I wish i was confident about your answer.
The lump in my throat feels like cancer.
I would do anything to take this mistake back.
The trust was the only thing i seemed to lack.
I'm so sorry for all i have done.
Yet again, the tears have begun.
If you tell me no i wont hold a grudge.
My heart feels like a sponge.
Filled with hurt and confusion.
This is only one of my solutions.
I hope you accepy my apology.
well, inside i still believe.
i guess ill go and leave you be.
I'll be thinking of you, please, dont forget me.
<3