You were never my friend

Goin back to the bad side...
and I don't care if you'll hate me
Because i know you already do.
Why? I have no clue.
Do you even know me?
Hell,well I'm AMANDA,ok?
That's all you need to know.
I did nothing to you.
My life's been hell
I've been put back on 24 hour watch over this
I was never asked if i was ok
I trotted on
While holding everyone else up
But bit by bit over the summer my life's been crashing down
But I kept my mouth shut
I tried repairing relationships while others crashed before I could grab them
I'm refusing food,vomiting costantly
Because I'm so fucking unhappy
Ask about the little punctures on my arm
Would you cry about my story?
I think not
You would just say I'll be fine
...
I'll be fine?!
Not this time
Look,I know I'm wasting your time
So allow me to grab the gun
Goodbye.....