Never good enough...

From a family of people with high expectation,
People who always expect the best,
Don't make us ashamed they say,
Because we expect nothing less.

Three sisters with whom there is no comparison,
Always undermined,made the butt of all jest,
I know that all I can do is try,
But in their eyes I fail even though it's my best.

And so i push myself to be better than my best,
But I'm just so sorry that you can't be impressed,
You're always telling me that I'm doing less,
Than what you expect to be my best.

I'm so sick of trying and failing in your eyes,
I often pretend to be something I'm not,
I roll my eyes but I'm hiding the hurt,
Your words feel like gunshots.

They shoot me when you look at me,
With that disappointed look in your eyes,
They pierce my soul when you tell me,
Why don't you ever try?

I'm sorry I'm just not good enough,
Sorry if I'm too obnoxious and loud,
I'm sorry if I never show I love you well enough,
So sorry I can't make you proud,