Why can't I love?

I want to feel,

What I see,

I see everyone is happy,

Except me,

I see love float around me,

I can't seem to have it,

But if I have love to give,

What if they stab it,

I want to feel the butterflies,

I want to feel the joy,

I don't want to be dead to love,

I don't want to be a toy,

I want to feel the happiness,

That I can share,

I want someone to show me,

That they really care,

But no i'm trapped,

Without no one here,

I'm afraid i'll never find love,

If no one is near,

I've met heartbreak,

I've met lust,

They both broke me,

Until I couldn't trust,

Now I want to real thing,

I don't want it to fake,

I promise I wouldn't hurt them,

If they wouldn't let me break,

I promise to be a friend,

To hold his hand,

To never let him go,

To always stand,

But sadly love has forgot me,

Went to work it's way,

Love has left me,

With nothing to say,

For once if I could have,

Just a tiny bit of love,

I'd stop complaining,

Because that'd be enough,

Why can't I love?

Is all I want to know,

I'll have to give in that i'll never find it,

But I wont let the question go,