Watch It Pass By

I lay upon the soggy grass
And look up to the sky,
I watch all the airplanes,
And clouds that float on by.
I once saw happy pictures,
Up in those puffy clouds,
Now all I see is demons,
And how I've done them proud.
I pull up clumps of earth,
And squish them in my hands,
The promises never done,
And all forgotten plans.
I close my eyes to the world
The sunbeams through my lids
I don't like thinking of my life,
No, not one little bit,
Who am I becoming?
Why do I feel this way?
And when I shut my eyes
Why won’t it go away?
A tear runs into my ear,
A shiver down my spine,
Why am I still lying here?
When I still have so much time.
I open up my tired eyes
How long have they been shut?