It Whispers

I'm sick of always having to try so hard
(So put the blade to your throat)
I never get it right anyway
(So slide the metal and don't let go)
I don't get why I even try
(So grab the gun and aim high)
I don't have thick skin and words hurt
(So pull the trigger and let the bullets fly) 
I'm not strong enough to take it 
(So tie the rope oh so tight)
I can't deal with the lies and judgement
(So step off that chair tonight)
I'm just getting everything wrong
(So put the pills in your tongue)
I'm done with people not understanding
(So swallow fast and you'll die young)
I never have the right race or a good enough face
(So hop up on that ledge)
I'm unapproachable and usually ignored
(So place both feet over the edge)
I just always get in the way 
(So get under the water and hold your breath)
I wouldn't be missed cause no one would care
(So hold until there's nothing left)
I'm always left alone
(So step onto the tracks)
I'm never gonna be rescued from the torchure
(So stand still and let your bones crack)
I just wanted someone who knew
(So grab my hand)
I needed someone to be honest with
(So say you'll try to understand)
I'm in need of an intervention
(So take the bullets from me)
I want to know how to survive myself
(So don't just tell me make me see)
I need someone to just be there
(So catch me before I fall in)
I'm waiting to not be alone
(So stop me from drownin') 
I want to feel like I matter to someone anywhere
(So take a hold and don't leave)
I won't leave if I get your reply
(So reach out and say you love me)