My Loss

Like a sharp knife you cut through my flesh. I’m bleeding. The pain will never heal, for when it does, I miss it.

I crave your torture. The sting means that you are still here. Without it, I know that you are gone.

My soul mate, my love, gone forever and yet so close. I can see you through the glass. You laugh, and smile, and it wounds me deeper because I am not there beside you to bring you joy.

I miss you, and cry for you. I am screaming your name! Can you not heart me? Does my voice fail in vain?

I drown tonight in bloody sorrows. Your wound has cut too deep. I will never heal, never recover. I will not accept stitches, or a bandage to slow my fate. Your betrayal has doomed me. I am not strong enough for this thing we call love.

Weak and shaking I stand at your door. This was a mistake. I regret all that I said, and all that I feel. I should not have come. Was it to say goodbye? No. I could never speak that word. Not to you. Was it in false hope that you would answer?

Now I stand with tears in my eyes, my faith in love has betrayed me. I should go, but I can’t. I should run before you notice me in the shadows, but my feet will not move. There is nothing for me here, but I cannot go.

I love you too much.