Internal conflict

Why do I remember?
Why are you still there?
Knowing what we were
it's too much to bear.

Why did I write to you?
Did I think we could change?
Things aren't the same now
No relationship in range.

I can't stand it anymore
my feelings trapped within
tear them out now
why not just give in?

I know I was wrong
I know things were bad
But what hurt the most
Was what we had.

For at the end
After everything we did
We had nothing
And so we were rid.

Rid of each other
Rid of thoughts
Rid of emotions
Rid of our knots.

So just leave me alone
I know I'll survive
I can carry on
if i only leave you behind