Buried Beneath Silver Dreams

My head is spinning like a Merry-Go-Round.
Thoughts of some kind of affection stick around.
The swirling lights never cease to amaze us,
Life has been fast-motion going nowhere.
My other personalities were only air used to wish you well
But I am so easily forgotten.
I'm hoping I didn't lose my name in the clouds,
I couldn't bring myself to notice the tragic downfall.

I've lost it all,
I've watched myself fall,
Wishing it all to be a nightmare.
No one hears my call.

Whether it is known or forgotten,
I've learned plenty.
I noticed what I couldn't feel,
And I can't remember if I was too late
Or if I was sleeping.
Sorrow stains my room, but I didn't even hint at it until late.
Our laced fingers slowly slipped.
In your hands resides a memory.

Whether I am found again or not, my world will still be stained dark.
We'll exchange words of greeting and farewell.
I don't fear death;
I only fear being all alone.
I'm terrified to stop and look at the changes I let other people make in my life.
The past is killing me,
My regrets are eating me alive.
Am I the only one who thinks the past defines the future in us?

How much longer?
How much closer?

How many more friends will be lost from my sight?

When will people see?
When will people hear?

When will people know how hurt I truly am?

I've lost it all,
I've watched myself fall,
Wishing it all to be a nightmare.
No one hears my call.

My room is bleak.
No light, no windows.
No one knows, no one knows, no one knows.
Nobody truly knows what I'm feeling.
I've slipped too far away,
And no one is willing to save the damned.
I've lost it all,
Buried beneath silver dreams.