I Miss You.

I lie here in a grassy field
Thinking about what we used to be
The laughter between the kisses and love
I looked in your eyes.. and saw only me.

You loved me so much and who knows why
I never really understood
How could you love a freak like me?
It's something I never believed anyone could

I was always scared and drunk
You hated the stupid things I do
I never listened to anyone when I should have
The cost? I lost you.

It didn't hurt too much for a while
But then I opened my eyes
I'm crazy for not have knowing before
I wasn't ready for our final goodbyes

It hit me hard now and the tears won't stop
I'm missin' you so much
I want you back, all we had..
Gods- I can't even follow this damn rhyme scheme anymore.

Don't you ever think I've forgotten about you, baby, or that I'm better off.
Because no matter who I date, who I kiss, dance with, cuddle with..
It all feels wrong.
The only place that really felt right in a long time was right there in your arms.

The clouds are parting now and the sun's starting to rise and today's going to be just like yesterday and the day before. Spent the same exact way.
Writing about you.

I'll never be ready to let you go...
And I'm sorry for all that I did
I don't care if you don't love me anymore..
I just wanted you to know, Darling.

You don't know how amazing you really are, Hun.
Whoever you have now is very lucky.
I'll try my hardest not to cry anymore...
I'll be strong, just like you always made me feel.