Try

Too many scars to count
Trying to wait it out
The loneliness and sorrow
Simply hoping for tomorrow

I wish I could reach out
Instead of dealing with this bout
Of dizziness the engulfs me
Swirling in a crimson sea

The blade is there by need
Always there to help concede
Never gonna say goodbye
For its never going to deny

I feel the blade across my skin
Never doubting it’s a "sin"
Washing over all so far
Leaving only a simple scar

I see my scars multiply
Watching normality slip on by
The metal hot within my hand
Why can’t they ever understand?

Never hoping, never praying
To go one day where I’ll be saying
I want to stop, or else ill die
Go on, I dare you! Give it a try