Best Friends

Every time we talk I try my best to hold on to my tears.

When you talk about her I fake that smile you seem to love so much.

As I hear your tears through the phone something inside me begins to die.

You say I'm like your sister and all I can do is laugh away the silly pain and agree.

At night, black tears smudge down my cheeks because of you.

I wonder if I'll ever get the guts to tell you what really runs through my mind.

The promises we kept together are starting to slip through the cracks of my heart.

Pain pulses through my veins as my body craves the very thing I fear.

Do you have the key to stopping this?

Every time I read the words you send me something inside my cold body cringes.

When you speak of the wonderful times you had with her my heart starts to tear into smaller pieces.

Best friends forever is the only thing that runs through my mind as I try hard not to cry.

Black spots stain my pages every night as I try to write the problems away.

Do you feel it in your heart?

Can you feel the sadness radiating off my skin?

Hm, I guess not.

I try to smile for you and hope everything fades away.

I try to stay happy for you, but nothing seems to work.

Redness stains my eyes as I talk to the last person I fear that can't help.

Every time I hear your voice my seems to brightness a little more.

As soon as her name comes from your lips everything starts to fade once again.

Is being best friends what my heart truly want?

I guess not, but nothing can help this now.

What makes this time different?

There is a simple answer to that.

Nothing.