Hanging on

I'm in a scared, confused and fragile state of mind
Nothing is fine anymore
Things that I thought were true
Were nothing but a lie
Walls that I thought will forever stand
Crumble to the ground
Now I have nothing to protect me
Don't leave me hanging, I beg you please
The world's got me on my knees
Teardrops falling like rain
I'm i the middle of a never ending hurricane
Never been in so much pain
Just found out my dad might not even see me graduate
My mom is just playing games
Feel like a tennis ball
A bargaining chip
An object
And I'm sick of it
So many lies
So many bills
Not enough time
So much pain I don't want to feel
I don't want to feel anymore
I wanna go numb
I wanna get out of here
My time hasn't come
But I think I'm ready
It's too hard
I used to be strong
I just can't take it anymore
I'm ready to go and knock on heaven's door
It feels like it would be the easy way out
There's nothing left here anymore anyway
It all just burned to the ground
Fourteen is fine for me
I just want to be free now
It's too hard
I can't hold on anymore