Free falling

Overcome by this feeling,
the dread feeling of free fall.
like everything around me is falling into chaos

Uncontrollable, chaotic, paralized
Fear taking over in this uncontrollable feeling
free falling into nothing

My life like a river pulling me under
flying away so fast,
how could I have lost already?

Like mirrors shattering all around me
how everything seemed so at ease
war has erupted on my own turf.

Struggling to maintain control
wondering why and how
what is truly wrong with me?

Falling in darkness
falling away to insanity
falling away from life.

The light slipping so far away,
its like a spec in the distance
and it grows smaller and smaller

As I continue to free fall into nothing.