Gathering The Ashes
I feel the rain pounding its hands against my head
As my broken tired hands attempt to revive the ashes of the dead
The world is burning down all around my sights
I’m being crushed by the clockwork’s majestic might
As I fall in line, I cannot take this pain anymore
I am the monster that was created from your betrayal
For when you see me, the creature amongst the pale
Shall my bloodied hands set your conscience on fire?
Just like you had once set my heart on fire with desire
The hopelessness had digested me and spit me out
I cannot do this deed any longer
As I gather the ashes of love. I feel my pain growing stronger.
I’ve lost the will to fight to find you once more
Set me upon the pyre and sacrifice my broken core
You are the monster. You are a monster.
Watch my heart burn as brightly as the sun
Watch in glee as everything around you begins to run
The silence itself screams stoutly so even the deaf can hear
Those once beautiful eyes now can only strike unending fear
Arson of my heart, shall you burn my body next and allow me to perish
My dismantled dreams are seeping through my every crevice
As I practice for my death, your presence is leaving me breathless
The perfect diamond I once regarded you to be has revealed a flaw
But it was much to late, for you had already torn out my heart and eaten it raw
I’ve ripped out the feeling that had once held me in place
As I dig deeper. Deeper. Deeper. Deeper into the darkness
Hoping to see the light I once held in your likeness
Monster of my own creation, leave me to the waves of the night
Allow myself to be swallowed by something not made of your might
Allow me to drown in my own sorrow so slowly I can see tomorrow
Within these nightmares of the burning ashes of this world
Within my hands, the crushed ashes of joy I shall continue to hold
Until the day comes when the hopelessness allows me to let go
Then the theatrics of pain shall take the seeds I will always sow
And throw them into the wounds of the crushed heart you set afire
I remember these days when I could dig and see your face
Before the darkness began to eat away at my continued disgrace
I’ve lost myself in the grays created between the silences
The silence I see as I lose myself once more in my defiance
I’m breaking down into the newest form of nothingness
We were never meant to be together forever
All that remains now is this boundary we continue to sever
I feel fissures of regret compounding as my heart continues to deviate
I want to hate you, but you killed every emotion I could create
I want to forget you, and bury you deep within my head
But you’ve taken away my ability to think
And only left me in a wave that continues to sink
I’m lost in the ties that bind me to you
Right now, why can’t I die? Why can’t we be through?
Let me rest upon this pyre forever, so my thoughts shall be clear
As I close these eyes once more and leave the world behind
The pain within my shadowed dreams shall dismantle my mind
And burn the pages I once inscribed my damaged thoughts upon
All these days where I knew I’d see the new flaws of the dawn
Of all these yesterdays, there is only one I held so close to my heart
The yesterday where the ashes fell like rain upon our heads
While our prayers knew exactly where we were being lead
Now these ashes have stopped falling upon me
And the only light I can ever hope to see
Is the one you emitted from all those yesterdays ago
As my broken tired hands attempt to revive the ashes of the dead
The world is burning down all around my sights
I’m being crushed by the clockwork’s majestic might
As I fall in line, I cannot take this pain anymore
I am the monster that was created from your betrayal
For when you see me, the creature amongst the pale
Shall my bloodied hands set your conscience on fire?
Just like you had once set my heart on fire with desire
The hopelessness had digested me and spit me out
I cannot do this deed any longer
As I gather the ashes of love. I feel my pain growing stronger.
I’ve lost the will to fight to find you once more
Set me upon the pyre and sacrifice my broken core
You are the monster. You are a monster.
Watch my heart burn as brightly as the sun
Watch in glee as everything around you begins to run
The silence itself screams stoutly so even the deaf can hear
Those once beautiful eyes now can only strike unending fear
Arson of my heart, shall you burn my body next and allow me to perish
My dismantled dreams are seeping through my every crevice
As I practice for my death, your presence is leaving me breathless
The perfect diamond I once regarded you to be has revealed a flaw
But it was much to late, for you had already torn out my heart and eaten it raw
I’ve ripped out the feeling that had once held me in place
As I dig deeper. Deeper. Deeper. Deeper into the darkness
Hoping to see the light I once held in your likeness
Monster of my own creation, leave me to the waves of the night
Allow myself to be swallowed by something not made of your might
Allow me to drown in my own sorrow so slowly I can see tomorrow
Within these nightmares of the burning ashes of this world
Within my hands, the crushed ashes of joy I shall continue to hold
Until the day comes when the hopelessness allows me to let go
Then the theatrics of pain shall take the seeds I will always sow
And throw them into the wounds of the crushed heart you set afire
I remember these days when I could dig and see your face
Before the darkness began to eat away at my continued disgrace
I’ve lost myself in the grays created between the silences
The silence I see as I lose myself once more in my defiance
I’m breaking down into the newest form of nothingness
We were never meant to be together forever
All that remains now is this boundary we continue to sever
I feel fissures of regret compounding as my heart continues to deviate
I want to hate you, but you killed every emotion I could create
I want to forget you, and bury you deep within my head
But you’ve taken away my ability to think
And only left me in a wave that continues to sink
I’m lost in the ties that bind me to you
Right now, why can’t I die? Why can’t we be through?
Let me rest upon this pyre forever, so my thoughts shall be clear
As I close these eyes once more and leave the world behind
The pain within my shadowed dreams shall dismantle my mind
And burn the pages I once inscribed my damaged thoughts upon
All these days where I knew I’d see the new flaws of the dawn
Of all these yesterdays, there is only one I held so close to my heart
The yesterday where the ashes fell like rain upon our heads
While our prayers knew exactly where we were being lead
Now these ashes have stopped falling upon me
And the only light I can ever hope to see
Is the one you emitted from all those yesterdays ago