My Jess..

My Jess..

So sweet, so kind.. You did everything for me.
Just...everything.

Remember the time when you carved my name into your leg?
Remember the time when we snogged in the park to prove to chavs that we were bisexual?
Remember the time when it was pouring with rain, and you gave me your hoody?

Remember the time.. You loved me?

Seven different men, I can name a few now.. Cory, that was the main offender - The one you slept with, when we slept together earlier.

Dom.. The one you always go on about.

Zach.. The one you were hopelessly in love with, the one you were going to marry before you proposed to me..

So many more..

Do you ever think, just for a second, how it would be if we were still together?

I know you went through shit, but I'm going through the worst time of my life.. And you aren't there..

Remember the time you hit me?
Remember the time you stole my best friend?
Remember the time you cried because you wanted Zach?

You never loved me..
It was a front, a front to get attention.
All of my friends hated you, said you were an absolute bitch.. But I refused to believe them..

Now what?

Remember when I cut myself?
Remember when you found me at home, drenched in my own blood?
Remember when I was in hospital for days?

I.. Loved you, more than anything in the whole world. You meant everything to me - And you threw it back in my face.

Remember the time I visited you in hospital multiple times when you had athsma attacks?
Remember when I wrote that song for you?
Remember when I spent hours and hours drawing that picture of you?

But now, I realise I don't need you anymore.. Really, I don't.
I have other people.. I mean, I miss having a girls company.. But alot of boys would give their left tesicle for me.

Remember the time I bitched about you?
Remember the time I smashed up your presents?
Remember the time I threw our engagement ring in the pond?

No, you don't..