Hypocritical

Things werent said
explanations ignored
send me away with everything to forget
still in the back of my mind
trying to erase you makes me feel horrible
you're unforgettable
even though you wish i would
with my all, i still cant
every touch made my knees weak
you made me lose my mind
my thoughts scrambled
the heat that would reverberate off your skin would make my heart race
your taste still lingers on my tongue
your smell still gets me high
to hear your voice would always make me smile
seeing you, even for a split second, would make my day
however, horribble things happened
you hated me
maybe even still feel the hatred in your veins as time continues
im trying to pick up the pieces from the floor
despite the amazing memories
i cant do this anymore
but...
everytime
just as soon as i begin to set you in my thoughts where my broken emotions reside
you return...
making me flustered
consuming my sleepless nights
ironic how upon writing this the song you always used to sing happens to play.
"she took the midnyte train going anywhere"
"it goes on and on and on and on"
it makes me wanna scream...
hold onto that feeling
there was something so pleasant about those times
that i just hang on
wishing you knew how much you still mean to me
on another sad note, a sad and cliche note
i smiled today. and for the first time it wasnt for you
it killed me
you used to be my sunshine on a rainy day
but you're unreasonable
stubborn...
and you're the biggest hypocrite ive ever met
but i must digress...
you'll always be my loser
and no matter what disaster may occur ...
you'll always have my heart