Undecided

Remember that time,
When I was sacred?
Your love, your life-
The joy we bled?
Just say the word,
Sound that whistle,
I was yours in a heartbeat,
Faster than that missle.
Haven't seen you since
That terrible moment
When you took my heart,
And ran off with it.
I know it's shattered,
No need to explain-
Don't add anymore lightening
To your rain.
You're still my focus,
My mind's favorite subject,
And I can't get rid of the thought,
Of being your object.
Own me,
Take me-
Make me,
Break me.
I need you back,
The familiar embrace,
But you've chosen her,
Over my familiar face.
"Commitment"
I cried,
"I love you,"
You lied.
Stuck with the fate,
The terrifying change,
I can't take the break,
I'm so deranged.
You were all over her,
Before you were done with me-
You proved I wasn't good enough,
Not even with my everything.
I force myself to look forward,
Expecting you back,
On hands and knees,
Bleeding black.
You beg for my love,
Plead for forgiveness,
With your eyes
And my weakness.
What would I do?
Emotions coincided.
"I guess for now,
I'm undecided."