ghost...

I lie awake at night
afraid to uncover my eyes
cuz i know what ill see
this ghost that haunts me
this guilty pleasure that taunts me
just a whisper in the wind
or a faded shadow on the wall
waiting to wake up
from this horrid nightmare
that taunts n teases
to the end of will
and to my despair
i uncover my eyes
and blink once
twice
3 times
but the ghost is still there
i try to cover the memories
it but puts gasoline on fire
to remember that ghost
to draw back the past
i writh with tear riden eyes
just leave me alone
i dont want you anymore
but that is a unmistakeable lie
i scream and scream again
leave me to find another soul
please somone help me!
i need to get rid of this ghost
and so i wipe away the tears
ghost, i beg you. Leave
i whisper thru the bloody tears
what have i done to deserve this?
and with that
i stand beside my bed
i take out a knife
and carve out my heart
i hold it out before me
and with these final shakey words
i fall to my knees
"i told u i didnt need you"