sweet solitude

I walk outside,
Its dark,
The Sky's are black and blue,
Clouds blocking the sun.
The wind blows my hair around,
Whipping it wildly.

One small drop of water falls on my face,
It feels cool,
Almost cold.
Another falls on my face,
Its ice cold.
Some more fall,
Stinging my face.
Then there are millions of drops falling all over my body,
Like tiny knives.

I try to open my eyes,
to find salvation.
To find a place to shelter myself,
From this pain.
I find,
A small shack,
Miles away.

I start to run,
To the safe place.
It keeps getting farther and farther away,
I fell as if ill never get to it.
Soon I feel myself falling,
I reach out to the house and try to grab it.
I continue falling,
And the house is no longer in sight.

The needle like drops,
Continue to stab me all over,
As I fall into a black abyss.
All I can think about,
Is the heart retching pain,
The stinging all over my body.
I cant feel anything else,
I cant see anything.
I cant hear,
Or taste.

I feel completely cut off from everything,
From everyone. I'm completely alone,
In a black hole.
It continues to suck me in,
Farther and farther I fall.
The needles finally stop,
I sigh in relieve.

After what seems to be hours,
I feel a tiny heat on my back.
Its warm and inviting,
I love it.
but then,
It becomes unbearable.
It becomes hotter and hotter,
Scorching my skin.
I feel as if,
My skin is melting,
The skin peeling away.
I'm being burned alive,
Suffocating smoke choking me.

I cant breathe,
The heat is getting hotter.
My body,
Is on fire,
And slowly dying.

I can smell the burning flesh,
The horrible smell scorches my nose,
Making it even harder to breathe.
My chest heaves hard ,
I'm trying to stay alive.
The smoke becomes thicker and thicker,
The fire hotter,
The pain unbearable.

Now I wish,
It would all end.
Death seems,
Like a beautiful sanctuary.
I give up,
On trying.
I stop breathing,
Stop living.
My lungs feel as,
Though they are bursting,
Exploding with agony.
My tortured skin,
Is singed and scorched.
I open my eyes,
And cry.

I close them once more,
And go to sleep.
I sleep,
For eternity,
Finally content in myself,
In rapture.