Shattered Madness (The Sociopathic Lover)

My soul is shattered.
Cast into eternal darkness,
My eyes, they only see.....
Haunting memories of yesterday,
When you and I
Were one,
Were loved.

I suffer in this hell,
This hell of my own mind.
Bound to my insanity,
I call upon the voices,
The voices of my despair,
The voices of my loneliness,
And the voices of my past.

'Carry your cross
Carry your sins.
Now drown forever
In your crimson blood.
You slit the skin,
You told the lies,
Now face your fears
And look in our eyes.
You believed in love,
You believed in fate,
Now all you know
Is pain and hate.
We took your love,
We took your life,
You held out your hands
So we gave you the knife.'

I carve the notches in my skin
In rememberance
Of you
Of me
And all we once held dear.

Haunted,
I still recall your screams,
And your eyes.
Those eyes!
Such pools of sadness,
I wanted to sink into oblivion
If only to be with you forever.

Lifeless,
I submerged my soul with yours
Only to feel nothing.
Awake my princess,
Give me a sign
Give me a hope.
I dreamt of a utopia,
An Eden.
Now, all I find is hell
As demons chant:

'Carry your cross
Carry your sins.
Now drown forever
In your crimson blood.
You slit the skin,
You told the lies,
Now face your fears
And look in our eyes.
You believed in love,
You believed in fate,
Now all you know
Is pain and hate.
We took your love,
We took your life,
You held out your hands
So we gave you the knife.'

You gave me the knife,
I struck who I loved most.
I curse myself,
I curse the world!
Yet...........
I dare say, my heart,
My heart is calm.

An exuberance of passion stirs
An ember from the flame
Still flickers
Still roars
Knowing you are etched......
In....my.....essence.