The Monster Inside

i like the feeling of the pain
running through my fucking veins.
the way he throws his words at me
i throw them back then wait and see
i wait for him to hurt me so
but he just wants to be let go
i can't get him out of my head
i'm feeling weak, my body's dead
i don't deserve his perfect smile
don't deserve to be held a while
i wish that i could overcome
the monster inside that has won