Leaving You Behind
You gave me butterflies from the moment we met
But now I’m wasting away because this emotion never set
None of that matters to me now, because this world fades around you
As if rain falls upon me and allows me to begin my joy anew
For the first time, I feel as if this entire world is clear
Like all those nightmares are now forgotten fears
You’re the only thing I believe in when everything seems gone
My old sunlight has set and faded away into the radiance of the new dawn
Though now, I need not sunlight to light up my world
Because your smile does more than keep me from becoming cold
I never believed I’d find a smile that light’s up my world like yours
I found my way through the darkness, just to find someone new to adore
All the shadows that once held me still in my torture
The millions of stories that kept making my life blacker
Have dissolved away like mist on a cold winter night
And created for me, a haven that has entered my sight
No longer am I covered in the falling ashes of my past
Because I believe that this joy shall finally last
Bar me from the epicenter of my aging pain
And allow me to gain the courage to step from this rain
So I can be one step closer to your hand
As I leave the darkness and enter an unknown land
The same I entered when I met the light of the sun
Yet, the very same I now curse as that sun decided to run
As I bid thee farewell, and resort to the homicide of my past
These open eyes are as a ship that has set sail, wind blowing upon its mast
Salt and light blowing upon my face as I see my beauty dance in the wind
Ashes blowing away all around as slowly as they converge into a whirlwind
You are nothing but ashes in my heart, nothing more than a memory.
As you burn in my internal pyre that only I can now see
Locked away in the locket I hold for the memories that seem to be too much
That very same locket that once yearned nothing but to feel your touch
For now it’s golden memories that fill my mind every second of the day
Wash in the embrace of the waves of the ocean in my heart that whisked you away
The salted leveler of the empire you had created within my heart
Yet, I reclaimed my heart as I tore your precious domain apart
And left you washing by with tears raining upon your head
The same you forced me to shed as I wished for these ashes of the dead
As I pounded upon my head hoping to revive what I had lost forever
But now I see, we were never meant to make it so far together
For this path I walk I shall walk alone
Time may permit a companion’s heart for me to loan
As I walk slowly to the ultimate light in each life
And now, you are nothing but a memory created in my strife
A memory that I have been permitted to release into the sky
To the one I seek to love, as it flies like a blackbird waiting to die
As it sings sweetly so those with eyes sewn together may sing songs of love
I am not alone. As there are thousands of blackbirds being sent above.
To the great creator of life and death
In my darkest days, when I desired none more to defeat my breath
The song of retaliation he sang as my heart went into mutiny
As he sent to me angels that only my eyes could hope to see
In the form of those I never held the true value of until the sun departed
For then their true forms of purity were revealed as the healing started
From the ashes of destruction I was recreated, burning with the eyes of truth
As I was awakened from the wreckage of my pathway and was drawn to the untruth
The untruth of the truth that now holds me in place
Yet this false truth, I can always stand to face
As it is all I ever desired to acquire in my darkest hour of grieving
Yet, it had been hidden by emotions that can be so unbearably deceiving
Cutting these ties upon the sail of my life from your life’s ship
As I sew this frustration upon the wilted roses within your lip
And stare into your eyes, the emptiness I now feel is so soothing
As I feel my heart screaming as it is finally moving
As this faithless defense leaves my heart and cuts through
Through the heartlessness, I can finally say--my heart is moving on from you.
But now I’m wasting away because this emotion never set
None of that matters to me now, because this world fades around you
As if rain falls upon me and allows me to begin my joy anew
For the first time, I feel as if this entire world is clear
Like all those nightmares are now forgotten fears
You’re the only thing I believe in when everything seems gone
My old sunlight has set and faded away into the radiance of the new dawn
Though now, I need not sunlight to light up my world
Because your smile does more than keep me from becoming cold
I never believed I’d find a smile that light’s up my world like yours
I found my way through the darkness, just to find someone new to adore
All the shadows that once held me still in my torture
The millions of stories that kept making my life blacker
Have dissolved away like mist on a cold winter night
And created for me, a haven that has entered my sight
No longer am I covered in the falling ashes of my past
Because I believe that this joy shall finally last
Bar me from the epicenter of my aging pain
And allow me to gain the courage to step from this rain
So I can be one step closer to your hand
As I leave the darkness and enter an unknown land
The same I entered when I met the light of the sun
Yet, the very same I now curse as that sun decided to run
As I bid thee farewell, and resort to the homicide of my past
These open eyes are as a ship that has set sail, wind blowing upon its mast
Salt and light blowing upon my face as I see my beauty dance in the wind
Ashes blowing away all around as slowly as they converge into a whirlwind
You are nothing but ashes in my heart, nothing more than a memory.
As you burn in my internal pyre that only I can now see
Locked away in the locket I hold for the memories that seem to be too much
That very same locket that once yearned nothing but to feel your touch
For now it’s golden memories that fill my mind every second of the day
Wash in the embrace of the waves of the ocean in my heart that whisked you away
The salted leveler of the empire you had created within my heart
Yet, I reclaimed my heart as I tore your precious domain apart
And left you washing by with tears raining upon your head
The same you forced me to shed as I wished for these ashes of the dead
As I pounded upon my head hoping to revive what I had lost forever
But now I see, we were never meant to make it so far together
For this path I walk I shall walk alone
Time may permit a companion’s heart for me to loan
As I walk slowly to the ultimate light in each life
And now, you are nothing but a memory created in my strife
A memory that I have been permitted to release into the sky
To the one I seek to love, as it flies like a blackbird waiting to die
As it sings sweetly so those with eyes sewn together may sing songs of love
I am not alone. As there are thousands of blackbirds being sent above.
To the great creator of life and death
In my darkest days, when I desired none more to defeat my breath
The song of retaliation he sang as my heart went into mutiny
As he sent to me angels that only my eyes could hope to see
In the form of those I never held the true value of until the sun departed
For then their true forms of purity were revealed as the healing started
From the ashes of destruction I was recreated, burning with the eyes of truth
As I was awakened from the wreckage of my pathway and was drawn to the untruth
The untruth of the truth that now holds me in place
Yet this false truth, I can always stand to face
As it is all I ever desired to acquire in my darkest hour of grieving
Yet, it had been hidden by emotions that can be so unbearably deceiving
Cutting these ties upon the sail of my life from your life’s ship
As I sew this frustration upon the wilted roses within your lip
And stare into your eyes, the emptiness I now feel is so soothing
As I feel my heart screaming as it is finally moving
As this faithless defense leaves my heart and cuts through
Through the heartlessness, I can finally say--my heart is moving on from you.