Two Fools
Confused to the point where I am
Dazed, I almost question my sanity
As I take a sip from my glass,
I briefly wonder about my thoughts
Before they get deeper
Frustrated to the point where I am
Moody, I question why I have friends
I take a glance all around me
And I realize that most of them used before
Upset to the point where I am
Tearing up, I feel my chest tighten
Lips quivering and fists trembling,
I hunch over as I wonder
Who are my true friends?
Who truly cares about me?
Who actually wants to know my problems?
Dishearten, I look down
And I stare at the scars that are scattered around my arms
Why am I such a selfish,
Needy and clingy girl
Swinging my drink back and forth as
I observe how much fun my friends are having,
I can’t help but wonder why I’m not that happy
Then I honestly can’t help but think,
I truly can’t help but feel that
I am just a fool who usually shrugs
Off her problems until
They get to big for me to handle
Perhaps I just pitied myself
Yet when I am with you,
I cannot but help forget about everything
You make me so, so
Happy that it was almost unbelievable,
I almost find it strange and
Yet I can’t bring myself to avoid you
A hand shaking me breaks my thoughts
And I look up only to see you there looking so concern
You ask me if I’m okay
I avert my eyes and look down just for a moment
Before I take a big swig of my drink
Still looking concern when I look back at you,
I laugh shortly before grinning at you reassuringly and say
‘I’m perfectly fine, don’t worry!’
You relaxed and laughed,
telling me not worry you before walking over to everyone else
as I stay put on the couch
Just for a moment,
You never once noticed how fake my lips were,
You didn’t noticed how my grin pulled downwards,
And then
In one moment,
I realized how much of a fool I was and
Yet you were the biggest fool between us.
Dazed, I almost question my sanity
As I take a sip from my glass,
I briefly wonder about my thoughts
Before they get deeper
Frustrated to the point where I am
Moody, I question why I have friends
I take a glance all around me
And I realize that most of them used before
Upset to the point where I am
Tearing up, I feel my chest tighten
Lips quivering and fists trembling,
I hunch over as I wonder
Who are my true friends?
Who truly cares about me?
Who actually wants to know my problems?
Dishearten, I look down
And I stare at the scars that are scattered around my arms
Why am I such a selfish,
Needy and clingy girl
Swinging my drink back and forth as
I observe how much fun my friends are having,
I can’t help but wonder why I’m not that happy
Then I honestly can’t help but think,
I truly can’t help but feel that
I am just a fool who usually shrugs
Off her problems until
They get to big for me to handle
Perhaps I just pitied myself
Yet when I am with you,
I cannot but help forget about everything
You make me so, so
Happy that it was almost unbelievable,
I almost find it strange and
Yet I can’t bring myself to avoid you
A hand shaking me breaks my thoughts
And I look up only to see you there looking so concern
You ask me if I’m okay
I avert my eyes and look down just for a moment
Before I take a big swig of my drink
Still looking concern when I look back at you,
I laugh shortly before grinning at you reassuringly and say
‘I’m perfectly fine, don’t worry!’
You relaxed and laughed,
telling me not worry you before walking over to everyone else
as I stay put on the couch
Just for a moment,
You never once noticed how fake my lips were,
You didn’t noticed how my grin pulled downwards,
And then
In one moment,
I realized how much of a fool I was and
Yet you were the biggest fool between us.