Disaster That Messed up My Life

I never get you off my mind even when i'm with him
I never get you off my mind even when i'm with her

You are the piece to my heart that I cant find
Searching, I keep searching for answers
As to why
Why do I keep this going
When I know its wrong
And why
I keep this camera rolling
When I have nothing to capture on film
Cause my ability to think has gone away from me

I cant keep you out of my head
I wake up screaming in bed
Cause I lost you
And I want you
I still love you

But you found someone cause I found someone else
And I know I was wrong because he isnt what I thought
He treats me like shit we fight all the time
And to this day I wonder if you hate me
And if you still love me too

Would you save me?
Im stuck underwater
The air in my lungs is floating up away from me
I know im dying

I want to fix this before I do so
Take my hand and let go of hers so I can take you for awhile
And we can talk
And sing our songs
Cause I know I'd walk through hell for you
Let it burn right through my shoes
My soul is useless without you

Im falling into darkness faster then I can explain in words
My life is falling apart
And I want to erase the beginning of now from the start
So I can be back in May of two years ago
Talking with you on the phone for the first time
Hear your voice one last time

I miss you
I want your arms around me
Let go of her so I can take you away for awhile
And we can talk and get this straight
Even i'm confused
I know you are too

We'll tell eachother all the truths
And all the lies we put us through
We'll stare at the clouds and listen to eachother
Like we used to
Before I did what I put you through

And I
Know its my fault
It started with Kristine and then to you know who
If I never left Phoenix
Would it fix this
I regret it.