I just had to let it out, the feelings in my heart.

When I first met you
I felt my heart flutter
You were beautiful, even though you were silent
Soon enough we became friends
then I got that message...
I walked over giggling and happy.
Soon melting into your side as I thought you liked me.
Maybe not as much as I like you
but I let you have all of me
I gave you everything
and you got a quick fuck.
When I asked you, and you answered
I was fine, I chose not to cry in front of you.
Not because I was just a fuck, but because I liked you.
I still like you despite my broken heart.
And now after all the fighting, and all my crying
We talked, we had a our heart to heart
You told me you were sorry and that you liked me as more than a friend
I'm not sure why.. But I want you to tell me.
I'll give you this second chance, because you intoxicate me.
But you mess up, and I am gone.
I know you'll be upset, even if you drown your feelings in booze, smokes,drugs and sex.
I see past that, and I will wait for you to let me in.
The way you cuddle up to me, and hold me so sweet.
Makes me wonder how you could hurt me, how you could be.
So cruel and mean but in our fun way.
I know its sick and twisted and so early to say
But right now you need me
Even if you never admit it
I know you do, I care about you with my whole heart
and that is the truth.
Now I sit here waiting to go to you
snuggle up beside you
kiss you
hold you
because I miss you already
Even if you don't feel the same, we have something
Even if we don't know what that is.
It's there.