Another Year Older
Blurring applause
Broken singing
I'm sitting alone at a table
They are smiling
They are cheering
What is it that I did again?
Oh, that's right
I got older.
But I get older everyday;
I'm not the same human being
As I was a week ago.
I have new cells
New hair and skin;
Even my eyes are slightly different.
Why celebrate?
A year closer to death.
Maybe it's the fact
I survived this cruel world
For nineteen years
And counting.
Maybe it's the fact
It could be any day now
That I take my last
Breath.
My mum and dad?
They don't want to miss
A second.
Maybe that's why.
Either way:
I've spent my whole life
Trying to be invisible.
It works
For the most part.
Then comes around
This 'special' day,
And suddenly
I'm in the middle of everything.
I am every conversation
Every thought
Every smile and whisper.
Sure the presents
And the money,
They're fun.
It's the spotlight I don't want.
It's only one day,
I know;
One day of the year
Where it's all about
Me.
I do not want it.
I do not need it.
I do not like it.
We can celebrate privately
If you want.
Or forget it all together;
It's preferable.
But if you must,
Keep it quiet
Please?
I want to stay invisible;
Give me that.
Don't tell the world
To celebrate me.
I want to be in the shadows.
A birthday shouldn't change that.
Broken singing
I'm sitting alone at a table
They are smiling
They are cheering
What is it that I did again?
Oh, that's right
I got older.
But I get older everyday;
I'm not the same human being
As I was a week ago.
I have new cells
New hair and skin;
Even my eyes are slightly different.
Why celebrate?
A year closer to death.
Maybe it's the fact
I survived this cruel world
For nineteen years
And counting.
Maybe it's the fact
It could be any day now
That I take my last
Breath.
My mum and dad?
They don't want to miss
A second.
Maybe that's why.
Either way:
I've spent my whole life
Trying to be invisible.
It works
For the most part.
Then comes around
This 'special' day,
And suddenly
I'm in the middle of everything.
I am every conversation
Every thought
Every smile and whisper.
Sure the presents
And the money,
They're fun.
It's the spotlight I don't want.
It's only one day,
I know;
One day of the year
Where it's all about
Me.
I do not want it.
I do not need it.
I do not like it.
We can celebrate privately
If you want.
Or forget it all together;
It's preferable.
But if you must,
Keep it quiet
Please?
I want to stay invisible;
Give me that.
Don't tell the world
To celebrate me.
I want to be in the shadows.
A birthday shouldn't change that.