Hope is my Disaster.

I listen to the words.
They're on repeat inside my head.
Hear me now.
Here I am wishing I was dead.
It's clear.
My sanity has been lost,
As I sit here and bleed red.
You've brought this to a close,
To an end.
I've fallen,
It's only a matter of how far.
It's only a matter of you wishing I was gone.
I've lost my edge.
The me that I once believed in.
You did this.
Or was it me?
Only in ones fate do you believe.
Only I can make a fate this reality.
Listen.
I'm done bleeding.
I'm done dying.
I'm not done believing.
Hope is my disaster,
and it's leading me.

So darling,
Let go.
Leave your thoughts.
Let them dwindle in the depths of your mind.
Their no longer welcome,
Because no longer will I believe.

Hope is my disaster,
and here it is leading me.