Buzzed
Buzzing
Like heavy traffic on a New York street
Though the cars and pedestrians but mere memories
Longings for how it used to be
Sorrow for how it never again will be
Anxiety
Tension
Fear
Cubicles of my brain running together
A cast in a mold released too early
Structure invalid
Boiling confusion
Chasing perfection at a price
That's never achievable
Rarely conceivable
Consequences ignored
The prize too great
But always out of reach
Too selfish
Too stupid
Too stubborn
Not good enough
But not preserving enough to
Let it go
A death caused by stress
Just like the life that was full of such toxin
A plague unavoidable
For those who are perfect
Like heavy traffic on a New York street
Though the cars and pedestrians but mere memories
Longings for how it used to be
Sorrow for how it never again will be
Anxiety
Tension
Fear
Cubicles of my brain running together
A cast in a mold released too early
Structure invalid
Boiling confusion
Chasing perfection at a price
That's never achievable
Rarely conceivable
Consequences ignored
The prize too great
But always out of reach
Too selfish
Too stupid
Too stubborn
Not good enough
But not preserving enough to
Let it go
A death caused by stress
Just like the life that was full of such toxin
A plague unavoidable
For those who are perfect
♠ ♠ ♠
I sat in English class not even able to pay attention because the stress was just getting to me. I have six classes this semester, whereas the normal full-time college student takes 4. I have to be the best though, right?