The Pain You Have Caused

Sometime I wonder who I'd be,
If I never grew up in the fighting.
I wonder if I'd be happy,
I wonder who I'd be around.

I thought it was all normal,
The mental bullshit,
The physical bullshit,
The verbal bullshit.

I thought it was normal,
To watch people hit each other.
I thought thats how love was,
To hurt each other.

You, the people I came from,
Say its alright to hit each other.
I faked a smile,
And told people I was alright.

I told people my family was alright,
And doing good,
And is happy.
Damn what a lie that was.

I wonder if I'd have anxiety like I do,
Or the panic attacks.
I wonder if I'd still run away,
To block out all the bullshit.

How can you look at us?
And say you love us.
When it was you two,
Effecting our lives.

How can you smile?
When it was you two
Making us cry.
All we asked if you would please stop.

I wonder if I'll ever forgive you,
For what you have done.
And the pain you have caused,
And the tears that you have made.

But all I do know is,
I'll never grow up.
To be like the two people,
That hurt me.