Restraint

I'm so tempted, but I know if I do,
Everything that I'm working for will be through,
I want to run and scream my anger and regret,
My pain and shame,
My sadness and my happiness, but I show restraint.
No more tears will be shed.
No more words with feeling to be spoken.
Just endless jabber about nothing, going on and on.
As you speak rude words to me, I can do nothing.
As you ignore me, I can do nothing.
As I pine for happiness like that once more, I can do nothing.
I'd rather show restraint then block out the light in my life.
Even though it went from a sun to a dying light bulb.
It burned and now it has almost died.
And though the silence of feelings is crushing my universe.
Its all I can do to hold back