Disappearing

Each day she wakes up and with all the strength she has, she lives through another day.
Slowly disappearing. Disappearing with every breath she takes.
It tales all the strength in her to glue that smile onto her face. That smile that fools everyone.
Those eyes, her eyes, so beautiful, she's told. A mixture of every color and every emotion.
No matter how much she tries to explain herself to people, she just ends up fucking herself over. She fucks up everything, no matter what people tell her.
She would never choose this kinda of life for herself. Isolated.
Afraid. Afraid of losing the ones she loves the most.
Love. That's just a word, but not to her. She doesn't say it unless she means it.
She just wants to feel the power of it.
When she's alone, she takes that fake smile off of her face. She lets the silent tears roll down her face.
She's everything everyone wants her to be.
She doesn't even remember who she is anymore.
Another day goes by and she turns the lights out and goes to sleep.
She closes her eyes and prays for things to change, then she opens them, and it starts all over again.