The Worst Decisions Feel The Best

I'm not scared, just scarred
The simplest things have become so hard
I can't get up, won't let myself give in
My face still showing this hollow dirty grin
I have to stay strong, but it's becoming clear I can't
and all I hear is your demoralizing chant
You were with me
Now you're not
The rest I guess I just forgot

And I swear this time will be my last
Addiction breaks the iron glass
It's been so long it's almost new
The decision I'm supposed to always rue
You're screaming, you're screaming
It's lost it's meaning
The world around just fades away
and suddenly I'm laughing
Struggle and struggle day by day
Suddenly I'm cracking