Deep Inside

Put on your smile
cheers to another lie
gather round for a shot of disguised misery
want to huff some happiness?
or snort synthetic cheer?
...and I'm still wondering...
can't you see the real me?

The laughter and joy always covers it up;
all the tears
all the mental suffering
all the suicidal thoughts.

Deep inside,
no one understands
how hard it is
to just be me
to just be happy