Delusion

Dear you,

You are what I live for
and yet I don’t know you –
you are just
IIIIIIIIIIIdust, earth, broken down
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIglass.
They don’t know about you
and yet they warn me
as if they do
IIIIIIIIIIlike horror stories
IIIIIIIIIIbetween your lips.

From me.

.
Dear you,

Precious substances fell
from your fingertips and
danced on the floor
IIIIIIas I shied away, trembling.

Your eyes are black but your
soul is blacker and
I fade away with the
urge to
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIdesire.
Oh, it’s so wrong.

From me.

.
Dear you,

You make my head hurt
but that’s to be expected.
Honest lies cramp my heart so
it stops beating and
hurts like a fire in my chest.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIHysterical giggles bubble
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIImy lips into a ruin.

And that’s when I realise I
can touch you.

From me.

.
Dear you,

I turned my back on you
and never turned around
IIIIIIIIIIand maybe that was what
IIIIIIIIIIsoured you
which just bit away my heart,
in the end.

To say I loved you would be
a lie but right now, I can’t
say I hate you either.
IIIIIIIIIBut you’re not nothing.

From me.

.
Dear you,

There’s a part of me that
screams out for help constantly,
giving me a headache
and simply destroying me.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII would ask you to shut
me up but I know you won’t.
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIWishing doesn’t make things
come true, you would tell me.

From me.

.
dear you,

god it hurts it hurts you hurt me
but it’s a lie we’re a lie –
no you’re a lie. you lied.
god god god i’m scared of life
i’m scared of – of you.
why can you touch me?
why can you hurt me??

from me.

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Dear you,

I wish I had your ability to smile
but you took that away from me.

Me.