Lonely ***er

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
The Disease I live with that fucks with my borders.
It pushes me over the line...
Then lose the best friends that were mine.
I overlike shit on Facebook...
Months of my life this disease took.
It may take years more...
If my family finally kicks me out the fucking door.

I guess I'm a sucker.
Friendships last forever? I'm a Lonely Fucker.

Never Dated, never had sex.
I'm cursed, voodooed, hexed.
I suffer every day the same cruel fate.
Punished by everyone I love while I wait...
Wait for my prayers that will never be answered.
Sick of the "Live your life this way" banter.
People think they know best...
While I waste away, failing "God's Test".

My willpower is nonexistant, I am so weak.
When I look in the future, it is bleak.
I have no power, everyone left.
Now all that I have to do is death.

No one cares, everyone ditched me.
I keep living & don't know how that could be.
Tried suicide 3 times...
Then gave up, now I write failure in my rhymes.

Nothing I do seems to work.
Nice guys finish last, you girls go for the jerks.
I stand alone, me & my OCD...
& Until the end of time, a lonely fucker I will be.