An Old Entity's Song

Keep me like a secret buried inside your soul,
Breathe me in like oxygen,
Let me take my hold.
Allow me just one moment of your time to say some words.
All I wanna do is let you know how much it hurt;
the way it killed what's left of me,
the way you walked away.
The way this smile on my face truly can betray.
Just like you did,
so long ago,
it's just too similar,
too hard of a blow
to a girl who's so broken she can't find herself,
can't close the book,
can't put it on the shelf.
Stuck in a past that I'm trying to forget,
but all that I can manage is all I won't admit.
I'm nothing short of miserable.
Nothing close to satisfied.
Just wanted to be memorable,
but I wasn't; so I lied.
Lied to keep you around,
lied to keep myself going,
lied to keep playing the sound
your speakers won't stop blowing.
Cause if I gave in,
abandoned sin for truth,
then all of those sins would come back to haunt you.
Remind you of the girl that I used to be,
the mask that I wore,
the me that's not me.
As soon as you thought you would finally be safe;
my memory resurfaces,
hangs like a rafe.
And you're just a letter,
so useless on your own,
have to be tethered to someone and moan,
of all that went wrong,
all that could have been.
All that this song and it's message can't send.
You broke my damn heart,
even though I tried,
and that pain was too sharp.
The girl I was died.

How did you do it? How'd you forget? Why couldn't you have pretended back then to be upset? That's all I wanted, just a little care, but you turned your back, and that isn't fair. Now you cry for me, and everything we had. Took too long to see that without me you'll go mad. So we'll both fall in our graves, never to return. By death I have been saved; in hell I'll watch you burn.