Ramble.

I can't keep faking,
My smile is breaking.

Every single day is a struggle,
My breathing is like I'm underwater.

Gasping for each sweet breath,
But I only receive in short quick bursts.

It's killing me mentally,
Physically I'm a hollow shell.

Emotion is leaving me,
Nothing fazes me anymore.

I feel like an empty, soulless bitch,
Who can't do anything right.

Don't try and change my mind,
Because it's on my mind every night.

Thoughts of just leaving,
Not looking back either.

Maybe then, if I left,
My breathing would come back.

Emotion would flood my body,
Just some feeling of anything other
Than my pang of jealousy and loneliness.

Stop it. Save me. Something.

Anything.

I just want my smile back,
Eyes full of life,
Force me to put down the knife.

But I can't open up,
Everyone thinks I'm better.

It's hard to type this as my eyes
Become wetter.