You were gone

When you were gone

Waiting was thought to be the hard part,
but it seems life did go on just fine,
even with out you by my side,
but not a day goes by I wish you were here,

So much was missed,
Birthdays, school and graduation,
but still life went on with out you around,
all I had was the memory of what it was like when you were,

still all I wanted was you,
no one else was good enough,
even if I tried so hard to make myself think they were better,
but just another thing I failed at,

Just as I fail at not hurting you,
fail at making everything better now that your here,
fail at not thinking that I missed to much,
fail at not being scared,

funny how I thought things would be easier,
yet young hearts still beat in us,
and childish feelings occur on both ends,
life was easier in our firefly catching days,

now lost of words,
nothing I can say will make me not be a disaster,
it just happens I'm good at destroying my happiness,
and sorrys are never a good enough word,

Choices is one thing I was never good at,
even more so with pressure,
I tend to run away,
So please don't push me,
and I promise to try my best.