Kept feelings

The anger I feel,
is stronger than steel.

Sometimes it’s easy to hide,
but not always kept out of sight.

Under a pillow I hide my head;
Actions are always harder done then said.

Always trying to be the good one,
which makes me sometimes miss my sun.

When I feel like that I try to hide away,
because I know it'll upset you to see me that way.

I always try to bring you joy,
But sometimes I feel like a toy.

When will the pain go away,
or will it always stay?

I have put your happiness on the top of my list,
but I don’t always feel missed.

Everyone's happiness was all I see,
and now I realize I have forgotten me.

I'll keep on a smile even if my feeling is a mess,
because seeing everyone happy is price-less.