lurkyness

His face was soft
his muscles strong
His eyes so blue
His hair so long
Do i want?
Or do in need?
Am i desperate?
As i plead?
Can he tell?
That i am scared?
Am i being weird?
Does he even care?
My ex is watching.
I'm in a spot.
Is he hurt?
Is he not?
He looks jealous.
Do i care?
I don't want to hurt him.
But hes sitting right there!
Should i leave?
End this game?
Should i stay?
Create more pain?.
His eye lashes so long.
No one is watching
I'm not this strong!
Should i say hi?
Or pretend hes not there?
Do i still love him?
And his mystifying stare?
I need to stop
Focus on school?
I need to calm down
I need to forget
What better way
Than to find a new guy
So he gets a kiss
As i try not to cry
He gives me a weird look
Like "ok thats cool."
I feel like the lamb
Who followed Mary to school
Not even that
I feel like a tool.
The worse part of all
The mess in this game
Nathan was watching
Love is a pain.

Sloppy seconds the worse the verse just so vain!