Every Time

For every time I cry,
I can count ten fights.

For every time I sigh,
My texts you don't reply.

For every time I cut,
You keep leaving me stranded on my butt.

For every time I'm depressed,
You say to not bring you down and make you upset.

For every time I make a plan to end my life,
You push me farther from your mind.

For every time you look at her I feel it,
A burning in my heart, I feel like such shit.

For every time a pill slides down my throat,
I wish one would get stuck and I would choke.

For every time I break down,
I feel like I need you now to keep me safe and sound.

But you're long, long gone now...