What You Did To Me!

no forgiveness
to you at all
what you did
hurt me all along

pain and suffering
almost all i know
chip in my shoulder
for far to long

memories that haunt me
like ghosts all around
emotional triggers
the just go off

you never realized
what would happen in the future
the slits on my wrists
or the holes in my hearts

scars that are physical
and also so mental
never fade
well the time goes by

what you did
always fresh in mind
never seeming to to the back of my mind
never going away

the suicide attempts
the scars on my heart and wrists
my depression and anxiety
all you
will always be you
no one else

my low self esteem
i'm not beautiful
i feel ugly and dirty
because of you

I build up walls
push people away
always hurting people
because of you

what you did
what you tried to do a second time
made me like this
made me who i am
a person i don't even like.