Talk To Me

last night was just a mess
I cried for hours
I couldn't find myself

I had to make the bad
vanish from my sole
so I ripped my skin open

today you asked how I've been
I lied and said I was fine
but I'm not even close

I don't wanna talk about it
cuz I have no words to say
I just wanna cry in your arms

if I could find the words
I'd tell you about my wish
my simple wish to die

i would tell you the dirty secret
that I've held from you for years
how I'm in love with a girl

I'm not okay today
and I wasn't yesterday
it seems my wish to die
has gotten in the way.