What is inside me.

Nick I know you will never read this but i have to write this all down...

If you were ever to die..
I wouldn't cry.
If you were to ever leave again
I wouldn't beg you to stay.
If you ever told me you wanted to kill yourself.
I wouldn't stop you.
If you were to tell me you didn't love me.
I wouldn't try to make you love me.
Do you know why?
Because every time i see you i want to cry.
Because every time you walk away i want to run into your arms.
Because anytime your hurt i want to die.
Because when ever you look at her i want to just sit back and watch my life fly.
Because i can't live without you Nick. you have left my life once and i can't take that again.
Nick i love you. I don't know if you love me back... But know i would die without you...
I wish on stars night after night wanting you to say you love me back.
You are the only guy i see myself marrying and having children with.
The one i see myself walking together in a park with when we are 80 years old.
.... Y can't you love me back?