Disappear

I can't find any strength
To find a way to make it through.
All I want to do is cry,
And find my way back to you.

I know you think I'm weak,
But everything has gone so wrong.
No one understands,
This has gone on for so long.

I'd like to get away,
But that's too hard.
I don't want everything,
Just a new start.

I fake a smile,
And keep pretending.
But I can't do this,
It's never ending.

I need it to pour,
Because you see, if it rains
It will wash all this away,
And finally rid me of my pain.

I try to hide my face
In my hands.
And I just sit there,
Because I can't stand.

So tired, but I can't sleep at night.
I'm trying to let go
To let my heart mend
I want to yell, but I keep quiet
Cause I know I'll dissapear
I'll disappear by the end.