Learn to love your life
I sat in my room.
Outside it was cold and raining. I loved the rain, because you could not see how I cried.
It was once again one of those days when you had nothing to desire.
I sat there alone. Once again.
My friends had no time for me again.
As always.
Depressed of all, I switched and started a music loudly to sing along.
''Wake me up, wake me up inside, wake me up inside, safe me from the nothing I've become.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone. Safe me from the nothing I've become.''
Went the song.
It was one of my favorite songs because it expressed my feelings.
I have often tried to make people aware of it.
But all my friends and my family looked away.
So I continued.
At each oh-so forsaken and depressing day, I went into the kitchen and pulled out the knife.
1 cut, 2 cuts and so on.
I can not describe the feeling was like. It felt okay, yes to almost good to see the blood trickle down my arm.
I thought by myself to feel alive again.
My grandparents were away and my mother had once again been to into the night at work.
So I had time for me. Time for me again 'feeling alive'
It was Friday and my oh-so-great best friend should have a sleepover at mine but she canceled it shortly before.
Once again.
I was so disappointed and angry that I decided to treat yourself to a glass of vodka.
But it was not just one.
Quick and informative was the bottle I was drunk on my bed.
Dingding
An Tex message:
After several attempts I managed to open it and read it.
Sender: Hunny <3
heyy sweetheart.
We need to talk. the way you're acting is not normal.
are you going to emo?
I can not stand any more.
I'm sorry but I have to make statements.
But we can remain friends
LG
And that gave me the rest
I stumbled into the kitchen and grabbed the knife.
In my drunken state I did not see where I cut and so it happened.
It hurt. More than usual, and the blood was always more.
Suddenly I noticed that something was wrong.
I was very sleepy and I felt dizzy.
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Effort, I tried to open my eyes.
My wrist ached terribly.
When I saw the hoses and the stiril white room, I realized that I was in the hospital.
God is thanks to my mother arrived home as I collapsed.
She immediately called an ambulance.
Everything has gone out safely.
When I was allowed to return home from hospital, my mother went with me to a child psychologist.
Since I have never in the slightest thought of hurting myself.
I've found new friends and am happy.
I've learned to love my life.
Nothing in the world is worth dying for.
Outside it was cold and raining. I loved the rain, because you could not see how I cried.
It was once again one of those days when you had nothing to desire.
I sat there alone. Once again.
My friends had no time for me again.
As always.
Depressed of all, I switched and started a music loudly to sing along.
''Wake me up, wake me up inside, wake me up inside, safe me from the nothing I've become.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone. Safe me from the nothing I've become.''
Went the song.
It was one of my favorite songs because it expressed my feelings.
I have often tried to make people aware of it.
But all my friends and my family looked away.
So I continued.
At each oh-so forsaken and depressing day, I went into the kitchen and pulled out the knife.
1 cut, 2 cuts and so on.
I can not describe the feeling was like. It felt okay, yes to almost good to see the blood trickle down my arm.
I thought by myself to feel alive again.
My grandparents were away and my mother had once again been to into the night at work.
So I had time for me. Time for me again 'feeling alive'
It was Friday and my oh-so-great best friend should have a sleepover at mine but she canceled it shortly before.
Once again.
I was so disappointed and angry that I decided to treat yourself to a glass of vodka.
But it was not just one.
Quick and informative was the bottle I was drunk on my bed.
Dingding
An Tex message:
After several attempts I managed to open it and read it.
Sender: Hunny <3
heyy sweetheart.
We need to talk. the way you're acting is not normal.
are you going to emo?
I can not stand any more.
I'm sorry but I have to make statements.
But we can remain friends
LG
And that gave me the rest
I stumbled into the kitchen and grabbed the knife.
In my drunken state I did not see where I cut and so it happened.
It hurt. More than usual, and the blood was always more.
Suddenly I noticed that something was wrong.
I was very sleepy and I felt dizzy.
-------------------------------------------------- -----------------------------
Effort, I tried to open my eyes.
My wrist ached terribly.
When I saw the hoses and the stiril white room, I realized that I was in the hospital.
God is thanks to my mother arrived home as I collapsed.
She immediately called an ambulance.
Everything has gone out safely.
When I was allowed to return home from hospital, my mother went with me to a child psychologist.
Since I have never in the slightest thought of hurting myself.
I've found new friends and am happy.
I've learned to love my life.
Nothing in the world is worth dying for.
♠ ♠ ♠
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